Instant gratification. I want it, and I want it NOW!
"Just wait, it will happen " is one of the most reassuring and frustrating things anyone can say to an impatient person. Frustrating because, well, I'm not patient and I want my instant fix, and reassuring, because I know they are right. I know that eventually everything will work out, but it's the not knowing the timeline of it all that is so hard to accept.
"I just want to be at my goal weight already." Be patient, it will happen.
"I want to be married to the man of my dreams." Be patient, it will happen.
"I want to start a family." Be patient, it will happen.
"I want to be able to look in the mirror and love who I see." Be patient, it will happen.
"I want a career that I love and am successful in." Be patient, it will happen.
"I want all of my debt to be paid off." Be patient, it will happen.
... and the list goes on and on.
The other day I was having a discussion with Amy, and I was moaning and groaning to her how I'm upset that you cant see more of a change in my body with all of my weight loss so far. Like a good friend, she told me to shut up and get over myself. Okay, so not really. However, she did help to put in perspective that I'm not going to have instantaneous result. It took longer than a couple of months to put on the weight, and it will take more than a couple of months to take it off. Even though I know she is right, the impatient side of me just wants to scream! I need to be able to see that the endless amount of hours I put in at the gym, the choosing of an apple over a donut, and my conscious effort to be healthy, isn't in vain.
I want my instant gratification.
It was in my moment of complaining that I realized I needed to change my mindset, not only about my weight loss journey, but about most things in my life. I've always wanted the quick fix, but I think it is time to sit back and enjoy the journey. It's time to celebrate the little victories on the way to my big goals. It's time to let God have control of my life. Every aspect of it. I'm willing to wait for God's plans, because I know His are far better than ones I could ever dream up for myself.
I will wait on God.
In the meantime, I will keep working towards being a better person on the inside and out.
I will get to where I'm meant to be. One day at a time.
"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." Romans 8:25 (NIV)
