It will be worth it.

So, this is not an easy subject for me to talk about... but I figure it might be somewhat therapeutic for me to talk about the thing I hate to discuss most... Me. 

As some of you know, I started a journey back in January to become the best me possible. By this, I mean, I am trying to better myself, not only physically, but mentally, emotionally and spiritually. For as long as I can remember, I have had terrible self-esteem, and all due to my outward apperance. I've never felt comfortable or beautiful in my own body. Always coveting other woman's traits. I'm now trying to find the amazing and beautiful attributes I possess and become a woman comfortable in her own skin. 

Part one of this journey is learning and implementing a healthy lifestyle. The last 4 months have been some of the hardest, yet most rewarding, months of my life. I have begun to learn what it means to eat healthy (yet still deliciously) and live an active lifestyle. If someone were to tell me a year ago that I would start to crave healthy food instead of junk, and that I would enjoy going to the gym and working out, I would have told them they were crazy. No one likes that stuff!! Well, I was wrong. Doing both makes my body feel alert and healthy. Now, I'm not gonna blow smoke and say that it's always easy to choose the healthy option, because it's not. Some days, I just really want a cheeseburger, and you know what!? That's okay. It's okay to have a splurge every once in a while, as long as you see it as just that, a once in a while splurge. 
Since implementing my new lifestyle, I have lost 27.5lbs and counting and I couldn't be more excited. Not many people know this, but I have a condition called Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome, and along with lots of other horrible side effects, it also makes it extremely difficult to lose weight, but I'm not going to let that stop me! By becoming a healthier version of me, I am adding years to my life. Years that I can spend with my family, friends, future husband, and kids. 

Part two of this journey is believing in the person God made me to be. He made me to be a strong, stubborn, loving, giving, sarcastic, goofy, and emphatic person, and I want to start living up to my full potential. I want to use who I am to further His Kingdom and to encourage and lift others up. I want to be the person who radiates His love through everything I do and say. 
I want to be a Proverbs 31:25 woman; 
"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future." 

Oh man, I know this journey is not going to be an easy one, but it WILL be worth it. I hope you guys are ready to come along on this ride with me. Buckle up, because here we go. :-)

-K 
 Left: At my heaviest in Jan. / Right: A week ago